End of School year 2017-2018

5.21.18

It's hard to imagine that this school year is coming to an end.  This is our last week of the year and the fact that in Nov. of 2017 I was getting a call from Larry saying you had Leukemia was still fresh on my mind.  How could we have gone from the beginning of the school year, to complete shock at Thanksgiving, to losing you right at the end?  It seems unreal, It seems not possible.  You spent an entire month of December locked in a hospital cell during  Protective Environment.  We watched you from a window and I rushed to you every Friday after work to be in that window.  We ate dinners and lunch, you from your hospital bed, me from my window seat.  Was that month worth it as they pumped chemo into your veins at very high volume?  As I sit here in my office thinking of you sitting there day after day it breaks my heart.  We did talk daily and I will never forget our weekends together.  Did any of it help?  Was any of it worth it? God I don't know, all I know is I was all in and there to help you navigate this scary scary world of cancer.  You had so many people rooting and pulling for you!  Our Thanksgiving 2017 in the hospital is one to never be forgotten!  You had such a huge group of Chauvins in the Palliative care unit that you literally pulled out a stitch from your PICC line arm from hugging everyone.  I wanted you better, I wanted you back, I still want you here.  Help me to understand why this didn't work out.  Help me to understand that you had to go...